Sunday, March 22, 2009

WOAH...

First let me start off by saying all is well in baby world....but it didn't seem like that would be the case this morning.
I woke up this morning to one of my biggest fears. Blood. So I did what I normally do when I'm scared and not in control. I cried. I prayed. I called my family. I talked to the doctor. I put on my lucky yellow headband ( no, I'm not kidding) and we headed to the ER.
Once I was admitted, the nurse tried to find the heartbeat through the heart monitor and couldn't. She tried to assure me that this was not a sign of despair, however that fell upon deaf ears. I had my 12 week appointment not a week before and heard the lovely WOOSH, WOOSH, WOOSH without any difficulties. It's hard for me to think positively when the life of my baby seems to be at stake. I'd love to be a puppies and rainbows type person, like Scott, but I hate disappointment. It's easier for me to think the worst and be surprised. Negative Nancy, I know, but hi, I'm Laura.

We waited for what felt like eternity to be wheeled off to the ultrasound. As I was being carted off to a small dark closet-of-a-room my years of Sunday school kicked in. A random verse popped into my head. NO JOKE! (Thank you Debbie Meyer!) I didn't know what book it was from or what the full verse was, all I could remember was a snippet. Something along the lines of " I know the plans for you. Plans to prosper and not harm you." I was still scared out of my mind, but it did provide me some comfort. Isn't it crazy how God can do that for you?

Anyway, I was all gooed up, shaking, and squeezing the life out of Scott's hands. She moved the wand around for a while and then we heard a heartbeat. I asked the technician if that was just my heartbeat ( since that was all we could find with the heart monitor) and she answered me with a JOYFUL "NO!" Our little peanut was alive and kicking (literally, we saw it!) The little darling had a strong heartbeat of 160 and was swimming laps. We listened to that amazing WOOSH::WOOSH::WOOSH for about a minute and then she let the lil' monkey show off. Scott and I watched through tearful eyes our little miracle moving all around. The little guy even had the hiccups. The cutest hiccups ever.....
To wrap it all up, the doctors have no clue as to why all the blood. This is my fourth run in with it. We just keep praying....

Oh, and I found that verse!! It is Jeremiah 29:11 " 'For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.' "
Duh..NEW FAVORITE VERSE. :)
Here are some pictures of the sweet pea from today's ultrasound.

I'm so glad that I don't have to throw away my lucky headband! :)

Thursday, March 12, 2009

In case you were wondering....

::Disclaimer:: This is 100% borrowed from a few blogs that I read occasionally. I thought it was cute and C and P'd. Copyright Blair 2009. :)

How far along? 11 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: maintained, but B-L-O-A-T-E-D
Maternity clothes? nope-however, I've done my fair share of lurking at Target
Stretch marks? No
Sleep: I still can't get enough of it.
Best moment this week: We had our monthly appointment and heard the heartbeat again. Heart rate was 160, which I'm told is pretty high. GIRL?!?!?!?
Movement: NONE, of course.
Food cravings: Big, crunchy, loaded, crisp salads and anything with buffalo sauce on it
Gender: leaning a wee bit towards girl for now
Labor Signs: None
Belly Button in or out? In
What I miss: Buttoning my pants
What I am looking forward to: Being able to tell people that I am three months pregnant!
Weekly Wisdom: not feeling too full of wisdom at this moment...sorry!
Milestones: I'm up past 9:00!!!! (Most likely due to my 3 hour nap from 5-8) :-)

I'm pregnant, ya'll!

First of all, let me say that I'm so excited to be pregnant! Scott and I are so excited to be parents. We both have excellent families and cannot wait to add to the gang. We are blessed to be pregnant so soon, easing my fear of infertility. While it will definitely take some getting used to, we're going to be great parents, I'm sure of it. Oh, and Christmases are going to be SUPER FUN!

Secondly, I'm scared out of my mind. Those of you that know me, know that I am very scared and intimidated by babies. They are cute, cuddly, and possibly the most terrorfying things on the planet! Let's see--wobbly necks, teensy tummies that fill up with gas, toxic farts, projectile poop, ahhh..I have to stop. So, the way I see it....I have t-minus 6.5 months to get over my fear. Now, who has an infant that I can hold.....