bribing myself

well, i've fallen off the wagon again. AGAIN! stupid pregnancy weight. stupid stupid. boo, laura. so i've dedided to set some "treats" to urge me to lose weight.

5 lbs- blog makeover!

10 lbs- pedicure

15 lbs - new bare minerals make up ( mah fave)

hopefully that will jump-start my weight loss. i've lost 40 pounds before. i can do it again.

aaaaannnnd my momma said she'd pay be $300 if I lose 40 pounds before Lilly's first birthday! Cha-ching! MOTIVATION.

It's funny what a week surrounded by girls in bikinis on the beach can do for your "get your bootie in gear" emotions. :)

Spring Break post coming soon. You're gonna ::die:: when you see lils on the beach. just die.

Over it

You know when you complain and complain about something and you never do anything about it? You whine...wah wah wah but CONTINUE to do the things contributing to the problem? and then. AND THEN you get to the breaking point where you're all like GOSH DERN IT..it's time to GET OVER THIS and change? Well......whattya know. I'm there.

I'm TIRED of being FAT and a good 50 pounds over weight. DERN IT {please know I'm thinking of a lot STRONGER word here, but my momma reads this..and she raised me better than to cuss on the internet.}

I'm GOING to lose weight. I'm DONE complaining about it over my 2nd chic-fil-a meal of the week. I'm SOOOOOOO not going to jiggle my belly and sigh while eating Dove chocolates anymore. I've come to face the fact that those people who just lose the weight without doing anything after they give birth are A.) BIG FAT HONKIN LIARS!!! or B.) ..... I can't think of anything else. They are liars with Alli in their purses and celery in their fridges.

"Mah! You can do it!" Thanks Lils. Yes. I. Can.

insomnia

I'm not tired. Seriously. When did this happen and hoooowww inconvenient? Scott's asleep. Lilly's asleep ( finally....... we need HALP!). There is nothin on TV. No Gossip Girl. No Hills. No Desperate Housewives. No Greys. No Office. No 30 Rock. and the most devastating NO GLEE!

TIME OUT. rumor has it it won't be back til APRIL. Lilly will by mobile by then! I won't possibly be able to watch MAH FAVE show and keep Lilly from eating the power cords all at once! Wah!

So It's 9:41 and I'm BORED. (haha first I typed it board....wait that's not right.) I'm done stalking facebooking and I've caught up on all the blogs I read. So naturally there is only one thing really left to do...ramble on the internet and pretend like people care.

I started Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred today. Great idea to start it before Christmas, no? I'd really like to get back down to a single digit size here in the new few months. I'd really like to stop using my bella band in the new few months. and I'd realllllllllllllllllllyyyyy like to rid myself of this pizza dough belly I've acquired. So, here we go. Day One=Success.

Lilly will be THREE WHOLE MONTHS on Friday. Holy chicken, where has the time gone? Let me just dote on my darlin for a sec.
-she held onto her rattle today! (yes, Ally....the LADYBUG one!!!)
-she coos and talks all. the.time. (She's sooo verbal. soooo advanced, this one.)
-she can be wailing and telling me she hates her life, but as soon as I set her pampered butt on the changing table she stops. (whaaa??)
-she outgrew her newborn insert of the car seat
-she is a champion eater now. she is no longer on the soy formula (TAKE THAT ENFAMIL!) but she gobbles up six whopping ounces of the Gentlease stuff ( a whopping 8 bucks cheaper!) Let me break this down for you...That's 7.5 McDonalds cokes or a large #1 from Chic-fil-A EXTRA pickles with Polynesian sauce ooor 3 US Weeklys ooorrrrr 8 strawberry limeades (during happy hour of course) OOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRR SIX PARADISE BAKERY COOKIES cheaper!
-she's sleeping through the night (i know the moment I press the "publish post" button Lilly will declare a sleep strike on me. i'm scared. moving on.)
-she's the cutest little one...ever. and I love her oh-so-much.

HOWEVER.....we are having troubles getting her to sleep at night. She's a little attention seeker ( wonder where that trait comes from?). We used to (as in two weeks ago) be able to set her in the crib, give her a kiss, turn on the sound machine, walk out of the room and she'd put herself to sleep. That is NO LONGER WORKING. We leave the room....and she cries like her crib is on. fire. We walk back into the room...smiles, coos, and kicks like a goober. Should we let her cry it out? Is she too young for that? We aren't getting her out of the crib to rock her...but should we? Should we let her "play" more before settling her down? More formula? Should I give her an ambien? (JK!) Please HELP me. If you have any suggestions....please share. C'mon, quit blog lurking and lend a hand. seriously. i need you.

"i'm the caaaauuuutttttest baybee in Avonnnnn."

rice crispie treat madness

i haven't lost all the weight i gained during the 9 months it took to build lilly's arms, legs, brain, and beautiful blue eyes. i'm having difficult feeling "cute" even with a new outfit (which pre-lilly always did the trick) and more than 10 minutes of primping.

but....... i kinda (ok...not "kinda" more like "TOTALLY") have myself to blame. i made rice crispie treats yesterday (my brain still tells me i have cravings...totally NOT my fault..it's chemical) and i've single handedly eaten the ENTIRE pan. here's my backwards reasoning.

yesterday 9:45 "mmmm....rice crispie treats!"

10:00 am-made the goodies

10:30-licked out the bowl

10:45-enjoyed ahhh-treat....as in uno, eins....

11:15-crept back into the kitchen, side eyed the pan --enjoyed aaaahnother

11:30- WORKED OUT WITH MS. DENISE AUSTIN courtesy of "total body makeover"

12:00 DIET STARTS NOW.....fo real this time.... MOMENT

7:00- husband ate two treats....still 1/3 of the pan left ( I was hoping he would bask in my baking skills and finish it off therefore me leaving me no temptations....rats)

this morning

8:00 entered kitchen groggy to fetch miss lil her bottle and unawaringly ( new word?!) decided to spike my blood sugar with an early morning snack.

10:00 Then came the irrational thought "Finish the pan this morning...get it OUT OF THE HOUSE and you'll no longer be tempted and your diet can start again FO REAL THIS TIME!!

current time--10:45 holding a fork while typing finishing off the last of the rice crispie treats.

FO REAL THIS TIME!!!!!

here is lilly voicing her frustration that i didn't think to share the marshmallow goodness with her....

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnndddd she's over it...