How?

How do they do it?

I find myself asking this question all the time. How can they afford to stay at home with their babies, while I can't? How can they job share but not me? Did we really make that many mistakes in our finances? Do we really live above our means? My husband has a good paying job. How come they get to stay home with their squishys while I have to go to work?

How do they make it work?

I want to be the one to see her crawl the first time. How can I see that when I'm teaching all day? I want to be the one who knows how to get her to nap like a champ. How can I do that when I'm not around for her naps? I want to teach her basic sign language. I want her to do "more" and "milk" and "please". How can I do that when I'm not with her during the day except on the weekends?

Now that she's getting older it has become harder and harder to leave her each day. She's no longer the little lump of cute. She's moving. She's sitting. She's learning and reacting.

And I'm missing it.


I'm jealous. There. I said it.