Well---fast forward TEN weeks and here I am!! FULL TERM!! I've wrestled for a while about posting pictures of my verrrrry pregnant self on my blog. It's a self confidence thing. I'm very hard on myself and I'd be lying if I told you I was happy with my appearance these days. I recently started the #shereadstruth bible study I've seen on instagram and twitter. I'm way behind the rest of the gals, but this week focused on toxic thoughts and combating them with TRUTH. Isn't it crazy how if the Lord is trying to teach you a lesson he figures out a way to put it RIGHT IN YO FACE?! ;)
My own toxic thoughts of embarrassment over my changing body were preventing me from celebrating the LIFE blooming inside me. So by posting these pictures I'm trying to show that these thoughts CANNOT and WILL NOT keep me captive. The TRUTH is that I should wage war on these thoughts and fight them with continuous prayer.
"Pray in the Spirit on ALL OCCASIONS with all kinds of prayers and requests." Ephesians 6:8
I have a dozen pregnancy pictures of myself with Lilly and THREE for him. This little baby that is about to enter this world deserves a confident and radiant mother who lives in the TRUTH.
((week 37 highs. lows. and woahs))
HIGH!! I'm done with school now and am thoroughly enjoying my moments and days with Lilly. She is such a LIGHT to me. We've slowly begun to get down all the baby essentials from the attic and she is SO EXCITED for her baby brudder that's coming soon. Every night she sings her favorite song (Zaccheus Was a Wee Little Man) to him and kisses my belly. She has her toys in his bassinet so he has something to play with. Her stuffed Lion currently resides in his swing. I cannot wait for her to meet him.
LOW: The self images issues discussed above. ;) and my chicken nugget toes. I never knew toes could swell!! A July baby will do that do ya...
WOAH: Last Thursday evening I had crazy contractions. Lilly was breech and I never felt a single contraction with her. (crazy, right?) I told several of my friends that I really hoped to have contractions with this little man--they all gave me the one eye look over--and now I know why. HOLY CRAP. Timing my contractions all I could think about was the things we DIDN'T have ready. I was yelling from my bed orders to my husband like a crazy woman. "Get the car seat out of the attic!! Throw his newborn clothes in the wash! Do you have time to run to the store and get dreft? Do I have time to shave??!?!?!?!" Yea--I was nuts. The contractions lasted several hours and slowed down so I calmed down * a little*. Up until Thursday, I thought we had a least a few more weeks before Baby Watch 2K12 needed to begin. Guess I was wrong---let the excitement begin. WOOOAAAAH.