Thursday, April 15, 2010

Before I was a Mom

Before I was a Mom, I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom, I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom, I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom, I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom, I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom, I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.

6 comments:

  1. awww you are an awesome mom with an awesome blog :)

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  2. so cute! totally agree with Neely's comment!

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  3. Beautiful post!! Love it!!

    I have felt all those same things!! Being a mom is the greatest!!

    I hate weening our little pumpkin, I want to feed her forever, but we are having troubles have another pumpkin, so I have to get my cycle back, so it's frustrating!! But breastfeeding is the best! I also am always half awake all the time checking up on our pumpkin. The bond and love between a mother and child is AMAZING-like nothing else!!

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  4. Well aren't you just the sweetest! Thank you so much for this!! :)

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  5. You're so stinking sweet! Thank you so much! Oh and if I was really cool and knew how to make an award I'd totally hook you up.

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